I have spent my life screaming silently, using my body to communicate my pain. I wanted to reach out somehow to other sufferers, and perhaps through my story give a little hope to others that it is possible to get through this. I spent my life hating myself, but now I am getting to know myself better. This is my attempt to tell my story, in the hope that it might encourage others to seek help and recovery. There is nothing to fear but happiness. As I go along I will be updating the site, to add more poetry and writing, especially from other sufferers. To navigate around the site, use either of the two images above to return to this page. To email me, click on the image below.
When I was a child, I spake as a child, I knew as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see through a glass, darkly: but then face to face: now I know in part, but then shall I know even as also I am known
UPDATES: 20th July 2001:
New books added!
New section with addresses for real time help
New section with web addresses of other sufferers/recovered
Click the fish to visit the Voices not Bodies site, endorsed by ANAD (A US organisation)
Read: She saw the world through stained glass eyes
Introduction to anorexia 'I went on a diet for a fortnight. I lost 14 days'
Inside the anorexic mind 'Though this be madness, yet there is method in't'
My story 'It is his reasonable conversation which mostly frightens us in a madman'
I am hollow 'And I control you'
Mental health issues 'What is madness? To have erroneous perceptions and to reason correctly from them'
And then I let go 'Insanity in individuals is something rare - but in groups, parties, nations, and epochs it is the rule'
Links for sufferers and those around them 'It takes strength to say when you are weak, it takes courage to say when you're scared'
Lessons I've learnt - outside the classroom 'In my head I've lived so many lives'
Inspiration, affirmation, poetry 'For now we see through a glass, darkly'
Books available on various eating disorders
The Fish Bowl - links to the sites of other eating disorder sufferers and friends
Reaching out in real time: support helplines and addresses
Support and words for friends and relatives'Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot'
Please note: I have not included any photographs on these pages. I could, in an attempt to scare people out of anorexia, put up photos of worst-cases. However, I think this may well just make the site triggering for some people, and for others provide a source of 'thinspiration'. That is not my intention here, so I have left out any photos. Thanx.
Dedicated to the sufferers of eating disorders and their loved ones
Chalices and pentacle (c) Robin Wood 1997, Used with permission
Crescent fires courtesy of Animation Center
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