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During
my time activity on the tt-groups was no less hazardous, especially if
you were stupid enough to try and be too helpful, outshine Nancy or ask
too many questions. The membership bore witness to these events many
times, from minor skirmishes to all out war such as the “Charlene
Incident,” “Hazlewood saga”
and “TT-takeover.” But once it became
obvious that the groups were being deliberately manipulated, those of us
who had been there quite a while began to quit one by one, basically
sticking around long enough to help those unfortunate enough to fall
under the hammer of the many and varied “witch-hunts”
and “new” posse leadership, making as much noise about it as was
possible before being silenced and leaving. Surprisingly most of the
membership seemed unwilling to voice any opinion either way, content to
sit in silence, never really becoming involved, hoping that something
would come along to confirm their “inner” feeling that seems
prevalent in the majority of tt-members, where you’ll still find them
today lurking in the background until May 2003. TT
is already on the decline, its archives, what’s left of them, (as they
are being selectively deleted,) mainly comprising the names of the same
zeta-faithful, all patting one another on the back for finding yet
another scrap of news showing some obscure connection to Nancy and the
Zetas in their vain attempts to strengthen their own waning belief,
intermixed with the occasion dissenting voice that manages to squeeze
through the iron screen of “moderation”. One can only wonder what it
will take to finally bring on that final dawning that their 12th
planet isn’t coming and never will, yet listening to their banter it
isn’t beyond belief that even when this fact becomes obvious they will
still elect to follow Nancy, believe whatever new revelation or scenario
she should choose to create after that date.
However even the zeta-disciples are beginning to question zeta
behavior, especially after the hale-bopp fiasco and subsequent zeta confession
actually voicing doubts.
(Oh
before I forget I must make a special mention of Mike
O’Hara, the TT-disciple wannabe who never quite made it. And thank
his tireless efforts contributing news material to TT-watch, while
criticising everyone else’s contributions and claiming almost everyone
who dared questions Zetatalk was either a disrupter or debunker,
spouting an open mind while all the time displaying bigoted, prejudicial
bias and clearly visible at each and every witch-hunt, if not
responsible for initialising it himself.) So
as you can imagine this site was not created for them, as no matter how
much evidence is presented they would simply prefer to choose to ignore
the facts. It’s content
falling into the “debunking” category despite my previous experience
and connection to the groups. Unable to prove anything of their own
belief while desperate to find some fault in any dissenting material
presented rather than allow the growing doubts to destroy their future
ideals of Nancy’s reality. So I will, at least in their eyes, remain a
“fallen angel.” To
those of them who venture here I would say that lies, deception and
manipulation, no matter how they are wrapped are still lies, deception
and manipulation. It is wrong and by accepting and allowing the Zetas to
do this in the name of some supreme intelligence, or hidden agenda is
contrary to everything that Nancy’s so called “STO” orientation
has stated and if you have any affinity with that belief you should know
in your hearts that this is so, without me having to say anything. Is
this not the kind of control you hate about the “normal” world and
what drew you to her site in the first place? What
I present is hard fact from the actions and words of the individuals
themselves, no speculation and rumour like Nancy or the Zetas.
Everything contained can be verified in both the TT and Google Usenet
archives. Indeed those persecuted can still be found either on ZetaAstro,
Sci-astro
or The
Transformation
for their own personal view on the matter. And remember all debunking
and conspiracy theories will have been proven false after May 2003, and
with it all the lies touted by Nancy and her faithful concerning these
individuals and their so-called “plots”. And
if that isn’t enough just check out what the Zetas have said on this
very same subject and you’ll see they are describing not only
themselves but the TT-hierarchy that represents them here on Earth. Hazelwood’s
spin off, the Prep2003 groups are no better. Their catastrophic doomsday
mentality all they can bare to follow. (I once crossed over and
seriously asked if they’d considered what preparations they would make
if the 12th didn’t return. Only to face a barrage of
insults and a threatened ban by Di, (the group owner) as the debates
weren’t concerned with none 12th planet related issues.
Despite her own obvious pre-stated doubts and the fact of being called
“Prep2003” which one would assume meant that the debates covered all
possible scenarios concerning 2003 including nothing happening.)
Incidentally the Prep2003 lists ended January 2003 due to lack of Yahoo
ISP space and Di’s waning faith. Unfortunately
most on TT and the Prep2003 lists are relying heavily on the 12th
planet’s return. Seeing it as humanity’s one and only chance for
future survival, where a new utopian culture can arise from the ashes,
forgetting the fact that each and everyone of them still carry the same
prejudices and personal bias that created our present reality and which
would ultimately only end up replicating the exact same reality all over
again. Indeed listening to many their version of the future would be
nothing more than a dictatorial rule imposed on anyone who should
disagree with their own ideals or beliefs, hardly the caring, sharing
service to other communities Nancy has been preaching. (That isn’t to
say there are not those who do believe such ideals, but these
individuals remain on the whole invisible, while the tyrants dominate
the lists sharing their own views and ideals. However
May 2003 will be a trying time as each and everyone then begins to
question their whole existence, facing the prospects of living out their
remaining continuation within the “real world”, a place they have
grown to hate with an increasing vengeance. To some they will firstly
feel relief, a release from the prospects of all that possible death and
destruction, struggle and strife, but at a cost, as some will have lived
with that fear for however long they have believed Nancy’s scenario.
Tensions and stress that will take time to recover from, especially when
considering they have built up to a crescendo of May of this year.
A tangible and understandable syndrome that is felt during
extreme stress-related conditions. Then there will be those who have
given up almost everything to prepare for catastrophe, taken out loans
under the preconception they would not have to pay them back after May
2003, bought vast supplies and materials, or lost family and friends
because of their extreme, obsessive belief, not to mention simple self
humiliation and sense of loss they will feel with that terrible
realisation on whatever day it finally dawns.
And
this is probably when they will begin to look for someone to blame,
finding only themselves accountable for any error, magnified with any
possible dreaded future prospects, driving them deeper and deeper into
the pit of depression, not that some aren’t already well embedded in
its murky depths. After all Nancy didn’t force anyone to believe, she
just supplied the ammunition for their empty gun, so to speak, what they
do with that loaded weapon is entirely their choice. And it will not
happen all at once. With some the decline could be gradual, almost so
they barely sense it themselves, taking months before finally showing,
perhaps when the stress of the “real world” takes hold, as many have
held themselves in a sort of self-inflicted isolation, withdrawing
almost completely from the outside world. Next
there will be confusion, a puzzling inner sense that will question their
whole existence. And not just based on why they believed, as many have
laid significant importance on the personal verifications and weird
experiences they have received. A crippling, frustrating sense of
bewilderment that will call into question their very sanity, depending
on how strong that previous belief and yet another slippery slope that
can be very difficult to surmount. But ultimately there will be no
support, that self inflicted isolation and humiliation preventing many
from talking or seeking help from those few they do know. And
it is to them that I feel most for, as the so called “Zeta-disciples”
have already shown scant conviction in their belief, edging their bets
so they can ease themselves back into the “real world” again, while
all the time pushing the membership towards total, unquestioning belief. [To
this end I am willing to set up a new group, where anyone wishing to
talk can come and bitch, curse, say whatever they want or simply have
someone listen, should they feel the need after may 2003, as I’ve
already been through most of the pole shift withdrawal symptoms, so know
damn well how bad they feel. They
can even blame me if they want for helping to shatter those illusions I
don’t mind. I won’t be going anywhere, but the created list, should
the need arise will be closed for privacy, so anything said will be kept
confidential to those of the group only.
So there will be “no holds barred” in that respect. Anyone
interested please feel free to contact me through my own personal e-mail
link until sufficient numbers warrant the group start, when everyone
will be automatically subscribed to the group via their e-mail addy in
my mailbox. (Always remember no matter how bad you feel you are not
alone.)] We
are rapidly approaching the predicted date of May 2003 so I guess we’ll
all know for sure whether the mythical 12th exists or not.
What happens after that date remains a mystery? Whether Nancy and her
lackeys will disappear or whether we’ll all still be here, either way
things should get interesting and this site will stand as testimony and
evidence of that control and manipulation, as for the rest we’ll just
have to wait and see… …the
countdown begins. Brian
Gillbanks (Angel Isle)
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