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About  Me

I daydreamed my way through most of my childhood till I went to college. I had no particular drive activating me at that time.

I have an academic training in physics and maths, graduating in 1967. After a few months in computing, I dropped out of professional life to become an anarchist in politics and an existentialist in everything else. This was my hippie and social activist period.

I have an academic training in physics and maths, graduating in 1967. After a few months in computing, I dropped out of professional life to become an anarchist in politics and an existentialist in everything else. This was my hippie and social activist period.

In my 30s, I did the traditional ‘soul search’, doing the rounds of various groups, but eventually realised that traditional values and beliefs (whether eastern or western) did not answer my needs – even though I did not yet know what my needs were. I was just confused.


In 1985  I spent a month in India, living in an ashram and visiting temples. When I returned I ended all my associations with psychic groups and went into intellectual isolation. For many years I read everything that I could on all aspects of human nature ; the local library seemed like my second home, since I spent so much time there.

During that period I extensively studied dynamic psychology (the way that the subconscious and unconscious minds work), whilst at the same time intensively analysing my own problems. This was the time of my psycho-analysis, which I did on my own, without the help of any therapist. (So I call it my self-analysis).

I went through periods of intense stress, which brought me intense self-awareness. I explored the dark side of the mind, including madness, and learned some of the hidden ways by which it functions. Eventually this understanding enabled me to formulate original ideas about faith, ethics, spirituality, and the origins of violence and confusion.

After forming my theories, I worked as a care assistant in adult care and in psychiatric care for several years. Nothing that I saw invalidates my theories.

Interestingly, the two original thinkers that I most admire, Nietzsche and Freud, also produced their ideas in intellectual isolation.
When new psychological ideas are being created, which often means that the thinker has become very sensitive and vulnerable, premature criticisms by outsiders will crush the thinker. Hence solitude is an absolute necessity for facilitating the free flow of inspiration.


Looking back,
the major direction of my life from my 30s to my 50s was an exploration of healing ways. It was a journey from physical healing (herbalism, plus a training in swedish massage and osteopathy) to psychic healing (or 'spiritual healing' ) and then to psychological healing (psycho-analysis).

This journey was, in its essence, a spiritual dialogue between myself and my soul.


A note on intellectual style.
I am a generalist in my thinking, meaning that I search for ideas and patterns over the whole range of my interests. This is the result of the wide variety of my life experiences, ranging over politics, sexuality, mysticism, religion, meditation, natural healing, and psycho-analysis, along with primary interests in physics, philosophy, history, ethics, theosophy, and astrology.

I am an original thinker. My ideas were born in the cauldron of my unhappiness.

The birth of an idea is just as painful as the birth of a baby.


My birth year was 1944, in sagittarius.

In the photos link above, there are some photos of me : early days, in guy mode, and in my femme transgender mode.



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