CHAPTER TEN - MOONLIGHT AND MANGOES


 
 
 
I IDLY scattered with my spoon the reflections of the moon in my soup, then took a spoonful of moonbeams. 
During the hot weather, the continental habit of eating out-of-doors on pavements had been adapted to my bungalow. A stone platform jutted out from verandah to garden, with a permanent slate-topped table in the centre. Each evening when I returned from hospital I found on this table a large carafe of water, cigars and the book I happened to be reading (or which my bearer thought I ought to read), and a chair. 
Later I dined there with solitary formality. A tinkle from a temple bell by the second bearer announced the meal ready. I had changed into white slacks and open-necked shirt. I was not allowed to stretch out for salt or desert, and according to custom the bible was brought with coffee. 
Though food was simple and monotonous - rice, chupatties, jungle chicken and vegetable, fruit and mangoes in season. 

There was nothing of the modern cult of ashram (sharing with the natives) in my jungle life. It had been rightly decided that apart from health considerations this would only have led to decreased professional efficiency; and since Indian peasants are feudal in their outlook, to a lessening of the respect and obedience commanded. 

The jungle moonlight had a strange other-worldliness, so bright but a cold brightness, that it lit up the countryside for miles around in subdued counterparts of the day's prevailing browns. It had other uses. Such was the torpor of the day's heat that only at night did one become alive again, such the endless succession of monotonous days and nights, that one unconsciously turned back to the primitive way of measuring passage of time by the heavens, rather than by calendars and weeks. Tonight, as I watched the large orange moon rise above the jungle tree-tops, I counted my eighth moon since I had become the 'Eye Maker'. 
On the ground, at one corner of the stone platform flickered a hurricane lantern, so that I might have early warning of a snake.  My portable gramophone was placed at another, and I sat back listening to Chopin's Nocturne in E Flat, which competed with the crickets' treble and the bullfrogs' throaty bass. 
 
 

27 December 1931 
Bamdah has recently been a little too much for me.  I was coming out in a crop of boils, which is a sign of being run down.  Last weekend I had to give in and escaped the thirty miles to Tisri by car.  I returned to Bamdah on the Monday and did another 110 operations in the next three days.  That was as much as I could take and returned to Tisri for a whole week to have a break.

I was feeling acutely lonely after eight months alone in the jungle, and almost feared to look ahead to many more. I began to talk aloud to myself, arguing both sides of a problem. A Dak country edition of the Calcutta newspaper The Statesman came by post each day, which helped to keep me sane. I sent them an article, which was accepted, and that encouraged me to write for the Manchester Guardian and other papers. I had casual visits from Indian officials on tour, one of whom laughingly likened my circumscribed freedom to Gandhi's? I asked him to bring me a pot of jam from town sixty miles distant, on his next visit. And as always, humour broke through. 

In my isolation and with my white skin, I became a local curiosity. My gramophone encouraged the Santals in my loss of privacy, attracting the curious whenever I turned it on. The most popular record with children was Harry Lauder's 'Stop yer ticklin' Jock' , they roared with laughter with the singer, and never tired of it. 

Then on hospital hat (market) days, when Santals came to barter their homegrown tobacco for spices and oils, bevies of artless Santal maidens, merry and innocently brazen, entered my garden uninvited and decked their hair with scarlet hibiscus blossoms. Becoming bolder they approached my verandah hoping to hive a glimpse of me, and discussing whether they should go further. Here my watchful servant took over, who gave a free conducted tour of the doctor sahib's lounge, dining room, bedroom and bathroom, to the strangeness and apparent grandeur of which they all expressed delight, as if it had been a stately home. The full length mirror in the bedroom was always popular, producing shrieks of delight. 
Only one thing mystified them. They could never find the zenana (women's quarters), and when Sardar my servant disclosed the sad news that I was unmarried, they thought my parents had been very remiss indeed in not arranging it.
 

28 November 1931    I am continually being asked if I am not allowed to marry – and was I a Monk!   When told this is not so, they wish to know why I am not married, what year I will marry, and always(!) what my salary is.  One presumably wants to think of marriage between the age of 25 and 30; the chances here are nil.  I  have seen a number of missionaries who came out single – and they have married fellow missionaries ten and fifteen years older than themselves.  What a future to look forward to!